For nearly two months, my subconscious let me know that I didn’t pass the California First-Year Law Student’s Examination (FYLSE, also called the ‘baby bar’). While I waited for my results, I checked my horoscope compulsively, drank more wine than I should have, and assured myself that there was no way I didn’t pass it. I did well on the Concord final. But at night, I dreamed of having to go back—back to the place with the giant trees, back to the library, back to church. In each of these dreams, I saw something associated with Pasadena, California, where I sat for the June 2011 FYLSE. The church was the part of the Pasadena Convention Center, where the test is given, so was the library. I knew I had failed, yet I tried the “keep a positive attitude” routine, and tried to convince myself that I had reached the 560 score that would allow me to continue, triumphantly on through my second year. Some days, it worked. Most days it didn’t.
I studied; I practiced, and I rocked the final. Then I stopped studying and practicing, and started watching theater of the macabre—the Casey Anthony trial. Read the rest here>>>>
http://thedailydefacto.com/2011/08/21/failed_californis_baby_bar/ 
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