WTF? Just take the bar. Once you do that you can do it all (don't have to, but can do)
It's ok to admit you are scared, but come on. It's just a test. If you failed it a few times just find a way to pass it (private tutor,etc)
Unless you "JD" is Novus or made out of crayon there should be at least one state out there willing to take you.
Is your degree not ABA? If online did you not pass the FYBX?