Unfortunately, I was academically dismissed from law school after my 1L year. I found out I was no longer a law student in June and I am still finding it very diffcult to deal with. I have always wanted to be an attorney, and I worked very hard to get into law school. My first semester of law school was one of the most difficult journeys that I have ever embarked upon. I soon found out that it was not undergrad. My grades were horrible. I wasn't use to it at all, because I did very well in undergrad. I was told by one of my professors that most people with my GPA did not come back and that it was best to leave. I decided to stay and fight. Second semester was alot better, because I finally understood want it meant to be in law school. I joined a study group, pulled all nighters, met with professors weekly, did practice essays etc. In the end, all my grades went up a letter grade (except for contracts). However, my first semester GPA was just too low that I couldn't come back from it. My school had a C curve.
Now, I am in an MBA program and very unhappy. I wish I was in law school everyday. I feel like a failure and an embarrassment to my mother. There has been an on going competition with my cousin who has just been hired at an accounting firm. Somedays I am fine, but most days I cry. I have no idea where to go from here. I don't know if I am meant to be an attorney. I don't even know how to be happy for my friends who are still there, when all I feel is jealousy and anger. I need advice from people who know what it's like to be in law school.