Caution Bacardi sponsored rant ahead
So here I am, a third year in a tier 4 school in the south in my home state, and hometown. Looking back I cannot possibly think of what idiotic reasoning I had to justify going to law school in the first place. Grades suck, I earned B's without trying my first half of my grand law school adventure, and when I became disillusioned (aka enlightened), I slacked and got C's, so I'll graduate roughly half and half on those grades. So here I am 120k in debt, no job prospects, no networks established and above all I've known I haven't wanted to practice law for many months now. Why continue? Why not, after a crap ton of tuition spent, at least I can get the coveted letters of J and D (for the budding alcoholics, this doesn't mean Jack Daniels). I'm chasing good money after bad, but at this point I don't have much of a choice.
So here I am. Law school has taught me many things (puts on flame suit). One is that I passionately hate the personalities of most lawyers/would be lawyers. That fake snake oil salesman style just irks me to no end. In fact I managed to find every one of my classmates who feel the same way, and we've formed something of an underground against this majority; the deans office hates us. The other, is that, generally speaking, 'the practice of law' is a joke. It is either totally politically whether it be a USSC ruling which twists verbage to such a degree an Olympic gymnast would be proud or in the case of Admin Law, a new presidential administration comes in and just overturns all previous precedent (oh we really meant this...). Don't get me started on labor law.... Political ideology is fine, just have the balls to NOT masquerade as legal logic.
It is all BS. I'm a believer in right and wrong, black and white. I fundamentally believe the billable hour is evil and puts all lawyers in a position of having a conflict of interest (billing vs. their fiduciary duties to minimize their clients bills).
I just am stressed out and fed up. Stressed about what you ask? Good question; other than no job, I don't have much to stress about. Well I need to start on my writing requirement, but no big deal really... School is a joke difficulty wise, and moot court/law review is entirely based off the clique system (good ole boy network) of who gets on. For some, it must sure be easy to be top dog in school when daddy is a congressman, but I'll admit that is shallow of me...and I'm off on a incoherent tangent.
So what do I *want* to do? I *want* to *not* be a lawyer. I just can't stand it any longer. Making arguments you philosophically disagree with, sleazing yourself like a cheerleader on prom night at social functions and in general putting up with left over frat boys and sorority girls who have now made it as hiring associates at the few firms around is not for me.
My options are basically this:
1. Get back in better shape and:
1.a. go to the police academy (not real big on this given my lack of faith in system already)
1. b. go back into the Air Force (I'm to old for that *&^%, plus my honorable discharge was for medical reasons = issues)
2. Open my own solo practice - doomed to failure based off my outlook IMHO
3. Open a bar and grill, just need some financing
Surely someone can commiserate, or are we all tier 1/2 gunners here....if so, never mind, something about not opening my mouth if I have nothing blank to say...