I can't seem to find a board to bounce my situation off of, so I am hoping someone here might be able to provide some advice. We all know the pressure of being a law student, but I never really felt like I was in over my head until recently.
I just finished my third year of law school (I'm part-time, so I have one more to go) in Califorbia. I was recently offered, and accepted, a summer internship in Washington D.C. on Capitol Hill. It's in the constitutional law field, which I very much want to practice when I pass the bar. I feel like this may be a once in a lifetime opportunity, and that if I didn't take it, I would regret it for the rest of my life.
Well, my husband has waffled back and forth on his level of supportiveness. He's a brilliant man...he's got a degree in political science, and even though he's not a lawyer or law student, he understands completely (and even better than most lawyers and law students, I feel) what is involved in becoming a lawyer.
We got married during my second year of law school. We agreed that I would quit my job as an accoutant once we got married, so that he could support both of us while I concentrated on school. It's worked out pretty well...it's allowed me to volunteer in several government offices locally and get great experience. We have had to make some financial sacrifices, but they haven't been what I would consider extreme.
Well, he's always been fiscally responsible...and it seems as though it's TOO responsible. He is adamantly against us being in any consumer debt (believe me, my loans freak him out enough as is). I try to explain to him that it is ok for us to carry a small amount of debt until I graduate next year, but it seems like we're always fighting about money.
I've offered to go back to work in a gainful position. He thinks that's a terrible idea because he thinks I should consider school to be a full time job. But if having more money and less debt would mean we wouldn't be constantly fighting over money, it's almost worth it to me to deal with the effects of working full time on top of law school (heck, I did it for a year and a half, and I survived).
Well, this summer internship is the most exciting thing to happen to me yet in law school. The only catch? It's unpaid, and I have to foot the bill for all of it...transporation, room and board, incidentals...etc. I'm happy to do it...and I had planned to suck it up, ask for donations from anyone I could think of, and put the balance on my credit card.
Uh-oh...you can see where this is headed. My husband is of course, petrified at this additional expense. But I refuse to give up this opportunity just because it will put us a little farger behind in debt (and this is on MY credit card...not even a joint card). I've tried to explain to him what this chance means to me, and to tell him that it's hard for me to deal with not feeling like I'm getting any support from him. That helped for a little while, until our next money argument.
Last night he told me he didn't think we could afford to have him fly out there and visit me this summer (I'll be gone for ten weeks). His idea of not being able to afford something is not being able to pay cash for it on the spot. I'm so frustrated...I feel like he should be willing to compromise somewhat with this.
I don't know if he's being selfish or what...and I don't know how to deal with it. Part of me wants to say forget it...if you don't want to support my career decisions, maybe we shouldn't stay married. Part of me wants to go ahead and do this and let him deal with his own problems on his own time...and hope that he'll come around and see me this summer anyhow when he decideshe's over it. Part of me wants to give up this opportunity out of spite.
Do any fellow law students have any suggestions on how to deal with this? I would appreciate any advice...