This would be the perfect opportunity for me to slam your ass because you have been so disrespectful to me on these boards. If the comments you've made about me were in person, you would have gotten a severe beat down. I could clown you so bad right now that people would talk until their faces turned blue. However, I choose not to do that because we are all flawed human beings. I think it's rather admirable that you've acknowledged your short comings and are trying to make amends.
Often times, I wondered why you accused me of lying when I had no reason to lie. I felt like I was being targeted because of my race/ethnicity. I've said this time and time again; I only care about impressing myself. None of these people pay my bills, determine my relationship with God, nor do they give me validation. I understand why you had such a difficult time believing that someone like me can score better on the LSATS than 99% of the people out there. You had these preconceived notions about my intellect without knowing anything about me.
Matt, I really do hope that you discover that your self worth isn't tied into what you have or what scores you get in school. The reason why people are so messed up these days is because they believe their self worth is equivalent to how much money they have or which institution they attended. Stop trying to impress people and work on making yourself a better human being. In the bigger picture, nothing matters but how you perceive yourself. Can you look in the mirror in the morning and be proud image looking back?
Don't let numbers deter you from your dreams. All these books and websites exist to brainwash us into believing that without the right numbers, students have no chance of getting into certain law schools. The LSATs are created as a process of elimination. I know so many people who bombed the October test and are now reevaluating their career aspirations.
All my life, I have always been the underdog. I've had several pitfalls along the way, but I didn't allow the whispers of others to influence important decisions regarding my life. Despite my "online" persona, I've always worked hard in order to accomplish my goals. When most people put in 100%, I upped the notch by another 100% percent.
This isn't an attempt to be condescending, but I sincerely hope that you reach your LSAT goals in December. I have LSAT notes that you are more than welcomed to have. Feel free to PM me with your email addy. Other than that, good luck.