« on: March 25, 2005, 06:51:15 AM »
I don't know what to really feel anymore or if I even have any hope after this process. I just feel so beat up and frustrated...but more sad than anything. I just know how hard I have worked and I am sure I am not the only one, but I feel that law schools just really don't understand that. I always feel like I never get rewarded for hard work...hehe this is such a pity party...It just sucks...for example I still want to go to Columbia even though I have already been rejected...will I ever get over this or go to Hastings always wondering why I am there and not somewhere else? I know I will get a good education I just feel so damn pathetic...I feel like a failure not being admitted to my dream school...it is high school all over again, but Berkeley was a great back up and it turned out to be the best experience of my life...However I just dont see it happening this time...sigh..........sorry this is such a whiny post...one test just really makes or breaks your future, wish they told me that I would have practiced for 4 years and just sat on my a$$ instead of doing all the leadership and service work I did thinking that would help at all or working really hard to get A's in class....oh well I guess what can I do...Just wanted to vent...here I come hastings woopty f*cking doo..too bad I rejected a job that paid 60k starting should have just done that and applied again ahhh here is to hoping the next 3 years don't completely suck
J28calblue-- yes, I do feel the same way, and I have posted on here before and found many sympathetic ears. However, any amount of commiseration is not going to make you feel better until you are comfortable with your situation. Many people, in fact, most people (including me) didn't get into their dream schools. There may seem like a lot of cinderellas on here, but in reality most of us are in your shoes. I have received a lot of advice, most of it comes down to: be proud of your accomplishments, you will be happy, you already are successful (you are going to Hastings!), and stop comparing yourself to others (ie stay off this board, LSN, xoxohth, etc). One comment in particular stood out to me (and I think it is relevant to you as well): every time you think, "oh what if I had scored 5 points higher on the LSAT, I was practicing higher, I could have gone to a 'better' school," you should simultaneously be thankful that you didn't score 5 points lower. In that hypothetical, you wouldn't have made Hastings. So, mourn over Columbia for awhile. Than start to get excited about Hastings. If you hate it, transfer, but I don't think you will.
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