« on: October 18, 2004, 10:41:43 AM »
When I came out of the test, I felt fine. No better than that, I felt really good. And the only thing that bothered me for the next sixteen days (wow has it been THAT long?) was that we had to wait three weeks to find out. But now that it's the 18th - and the consensus seems to be that there's a good chance we might find out our scores on Friday -- all of the sudden I can't think about anything except for the fact that I might have screwed everything up by starting my answers on the wrong bubble, or using a non-regulation pencil, or being such a dumb smart-ass that I thought I did fine when in fact I read a lot things wrong. My confidence has totally plummeted, and now I DONT want to get my score. Especially now that I know the way we get it is that it just comes in a stupid email and we press to open the email and then...there it is. Because you know you're either going to feel really great, or pretty relieved (if it's what you expected), or crushed. And I hate that last feeling, it just messes everything up for days.
So I guess it's best to hope for the best and expect the worst. But who knew the last week would be harder than the first week of waiting?