« on: May 25, 2007, 11:12:33 PM »
Trust me ive gotten my finances on hold- i was never really in over my head so to speak, i was simply unable to catch up. i mean, i can make all my monthly minimums, but thats it. i also now live at home. my parents simply took over the house payments, well, they do real estate investing and bought it and rented it out. no money was made. i only had the house for a year so no equity was really built.
basically, i understand i cant get the 85K i need to turn my life around. i mean, i can get it, just not through loans. pisses me off, really, because i was lookin forward to that lower monthly interest rate across the board and a timely deferral until i start makin the big bucks again. the way i see it, is im a fair shot at starting at 60k at least- 5k a month, back to what i was making before granted more bills- however, more fiscal responsibility.
and yesssss, debt is slavery!!! its a black cloud raining on me everytime i try to move. only time will tell but i hope i can find some good work here. you guys really dont understand how backwards, old fashioned, unambitious the city of charleston and the entire state of SC is. theres a girl i currently work with who is basically the poster child for women here (omg, please dont give me a fem nazi thing, its MY experience, not yours)
anyways, her high school teacher came in and saw her- asking where shes going to college. the girls response "well, dropped out of high school, im pregnent, getting married and just bought a trailer" she said this with pride and a smile.
i wish u could have seen the teachers face. the girl just turned 18 by the way. im trying to claw my ass out of here ASAP.
unless you have some serious connections, which i dont, the good ol' boy system will paralyze you.
its really not a matter of where i go- its where i can get away form here. also, any law degree will wrok in this town if i want to come back- which i dont- which is a good thing
ok enough ranting, time to head to work, again....