« on: May 09, 2006, 03:27:17 AM »
I still don't know about my financial aid, which will determine if I really do get to go to LS. I would have been in the 2005-2006 L1 class, but had to defer for a year and now I don't know if I got the big scholarship again. I need to give notice NOW at work if I'm going to disappear in mid July, but I can't seem to get a straight answer from the school. I call roughly every 7 days. I'm 8 time zones ahead of where my LS is. That means that every morning when I check my email to see if there is any word about the scholarship, and see that there is not, I get to think about it all day long until I can call in the evening. Let's see... it's been 4 working days since I last called them, guess I'm due for another call tonight.
I'm on the very edge lately, it seems. My British officemate is getting on my nerves more than ever- she ends every phrase with "if you know what I mean." She's a hypochondriac homeopath and spends half the day chatting with her patients about their (and her) illnesses. Just one of those things that annoys me more because I'm hyper sensitive and keyed up right now. There are rumors flying around the office that I'm going to law school- and that's all they are to me, too- rumors. Cannot confirm, cannot deny. The constant uncertainty- it's been like this for a year ever since I found out I would have to reapply for the the scholarship- is really wearing me down. What is it about me now that causes them to hesitate about giving me the scholarship? My scores and GPA are the same as they always were. I deferred to work at the UN, for crying out loud. It's like stretching out the admissions process for an extra year.
Is anyone else going through something like this? Oh how I wish it was not 3:26 am at the LS right now so that I could CALL....