Ok, second wave of panic for me. I don't know why, but it hits me the hardest at about 10pm, when I'm sitting on my comfy couch watching a movie in my lovely apartment. I start thinking ohmygod ohmygod what am I doing?!?!
Yesterday I got an email from a grad school buddy who still doesn't quite "get" that I'm going to LS- he keeps saying "hey, there are some great positions opening up in the company I work for- you'd be great for them!" His company IS a great company- the pay, benefits, and all, but the kicker is that it is a non-profit student loan management company. How ironic is THAT?! This is the same guy who took 6 years and $60K in student loans to get through undergrad at a state school where he was a resident. So, I know I'm of a more financially-sound mind than he is, and that I'd probably go crazy thinking "I should have gone to law school" if I were helping other people go through school (working at a student loan org.) but damn! Any seeds of doubt just send me off the deep end!
So I had a major wave of doubt last night, and it is lingering this morning at work. So much that I had to get out of the building and walk around outside (deep breaths, deep breaths) after I did a stupid Google search for "Should I go to law school." Sheesh. Nothing like picking at wounds.
I'm going, no doubt about it. I think this might have just gotten to me last night because I've had one of those whopper summer colds all week and am starting to get nervous about yet another sticky intercontinental move 2 weeks before I start school. On the bright side, I think I finally have a clean, quiet, cheap place to live within biking/bus/walking distance to school (did I mention I have no car?)
Just wanted to post this rant in case anybody else is going through something similar.