All of a sudden I'm experiencing uber-anxiety over all of this law school stuff. Considering that I usually operate on an "it'll all work out somehow, hippie" basis, this is terribly out of character.
The thing is, I've spent years researching, planning, soul-searching... I'm certain that this is the path I want to follow. I'm comfortable in the knowledge that I'll be working a few slavish Biglaw years to catch up financially. I don't think my nerves are about law school itself.
I think some of this is being stirred up by the options that have suddenly opened up. I feel really fortunate to have some choices, but I also have to accept now that I'm CHOOSING to go to Michigan and incur a metric assload of debt (on top of what I also owe) instead of going to Cardozo for free. I already borrowed to go back to grad school once, and while that was the best decision ever in terms of personal and professional development, let's just say it didn't work out so well in the money department. Anyway, I seriously feel as though I'm going to have a stroke at the thought of signing on the dotted line.
Soooo...I dunno. I'm not really looking for advice or answers here. I feel pretty strongly that our individual circumstances are all so different that it's nigh impossible to advise one another in any meaningful way. I suppose I'm wondering if anyone else is experiencing similar feelings. Anyone else in the grip of a "what the #*$& am I doing?" episode?